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Hello November

2011-11-25T23:59:00.002+08:00

Hi all! *cricket cricket*

I never thought I'd completely stopped blogging for months or a semester long. Achievement unlocked! I can honestly say that the last few months can possibly be the darkest time of my student life. Period

Yes, now that I'm done with Degree/university life (hopefully), I'm on to the next chapter of my life. Work baby, work!

Hence, blogging will resume as per usual I suppose?

Happy November (rain) everyone!

Touchdown

2011-06-26T02:00:00.006+08:00

For the past two months... it felt like this.

After weeks of camping in Uni library till late, brushing up Public Relations project to be submitted internationally, house-related, and tons of report.... I succumbed to that face above.

Immediately after my last paper, I put on a big happy relieved face for the fact that I'll get to finally sleep, spend quality time with better half, major house-cleaning (I'm OCD like that), and to feel my feet glistened with sea water together with the favourites. Sweetness.

There's nothing like having constant support and love from those who matters the most.

Zakwan & Alia

2011-04-26T00:15:00.007+08:00

Having no inspiration or rather discipline to update, I was actually occupied with school and mulling over future plans.

Back in January, I was asked by dear other half to assist him as his (at the risk of sounding like I'm boosting) co-photographer for a wedding. Scratch that, helper sounds more appropriate. For a first-timer, I can tell you... wear flats. No pun intended! And seasoned photogs will definitely agree with me that every second counts. You cannot afford to miss anything, e.g, when someone burst into laughter/tears and so on. Yes, it might only be a 3-4hours event - of running around - but to them the memories and pictures captured... really means a lot! I absolutely don't mind venturing wedding-based, if not portrait or outdoor based which I'm more comfortable with because why the limit?

Bringing back the P.Ramlee era, almost everyone donned what used to be high-fashion and relived famous characters back then - that includes Saloma, Labu Labi, and Tiga Abdul. Also Joanna & Co's rendition of lagu zaman dulu-dulu really puts everyone in the mood to do the famous twist. To me theme-functions can be can either be horribly wrong or a major success. I guess I am just traumatized by my own experience back in Form 4 but this is certainly not your ordinary wedding reception!

I thought I clearly made myself look like an assistant that night but when several guests approached and asked me the 5Ws of being a photog, I was literally stunned. Which I politely hinted that having dSLR won't make me one, but I do it in the name of love and passion. The truth is, I'm easily ticked off with people who abuses the purpose of dSLR and making it look like accessories.

If the hard disk didn't die any later, I'd love to share with you more pictures of this joyous event. As for now, much thank both energetic photogs, Arif and Jo for your awesome directions.

Zakwan and Alia, big love for being so camera friendly and natural. Semoga berbahagia ke anak cucu to both you. Amin.

When Life Blows

2011-03-01T23:32:00.004+08:00

I know things don't go your way all the time. It has to be that way. Or else, what's the point of living lah? I'm losing my balance slowly and suffice to say, it's one of those days or phase where I feel bad day is a never-ending thing! It feels like I'm emotionally sinking in an hour glass back and forth. Then again, I'm not bad times' only friend.

I will bounce back. How and when, I'll figure it out. Till the day comes, I'll accept the yang to my life.

Love and make peace with troubles.

Cake Me Up

2011-02-22T02:04:00.006+08:00

It kills me to see how birthday cakes trend nowadays are being replaced by cupcakes. Yes, I am old fashioned that way that I still want my birthday cake to be a 5-9 inch cake instead of 60 funky cuppies, no matter how adorable they are. I love eating cake and if it weren't because a slice of cake ranges in a cut-throat amount, I'll clog up my arteries with creamy soft icing and rich chocolate already by now. Sigh. Lately I've been learning how to bake and the sudden urge to bake my own birthday cake, which is lama again - for fun (and to replace last year's no birthday cake. Haha) just so that I can gobble it ~~all by myself~~ and enjoy being 22.

My initial idea is to bake anything chocolate/cheese/red velvet/buttercream. I'm a sucker for those mentioned. And the cake design that I keep picturing in my head is a 2-tiered cake. Not the ordinary ones but a crazy asymmetrical cake! Ambitious much? -_- Because that way, I don't feel like I'm eating a wedding cake. Or else a clean cut will do just fine. Ah, who cares! All I want is a sinful cake that will dance in my stomache!

At first the intention was not so brilliant due to lack of baking utensils, etc and it might turn out to be a kitchen disaster. However, since my cooking/baking/food guru just got ~~bake~~ back from Switzerland, this might be the perfect timing after all!

I'm just craving for a good slice of cake. That's all. Don't think I have the time pun.

I'm walking on thin air

2011-02-08T00:26:00.006+08:00

I think I'm having writer's block. Hence the lack update. But then again, who reads my blog? This space is like Potter's invisibility cloak might as well just invest my time doing things that I've been wanting to do.

Since I'm already half way writing this, I'm so itching to go for a mini outdoor stuff. This reminds me of last year's Skytrex adventure I went with the usual bunch.

This was few hours before I was down with high fever and viral infection. Huzzah! Actually I was already feeling a bit dysfunctional when we just arrived. Sad story. Anyhow I paid big bucks for it so might as well just bring on the A-game lah kan. So I gulped panadols hoping I can tahan for the whole thing but the agony of waiting for our turn was plain frustrating. We very the Malaysian. We queue!

We waited... for the latecomers to arrive

talked...

laughed...

he slept...

and voila! We can finally move our lazy asses and pump those adrenalin.

You see, this look meh and easy peasy but we're wrong! Climbing those I dare say the tedious of them all also according to the rest, the part that will suck in all your energy. Even I started panting halfway up already. Horrible, I know. And the next, what I can simply call safer version of jambatan gantung which I am not a fan of. Standing on something that makes my body wobble unpleasantly especially at certain height is not my thing. Read: I'm afraid of heights. So I just dashed quickly and keep my eyes focus on Saq (she's ahead of me).

The term skytrex obviouslyt means standing at least 22m off air. So to end this adventure, you fly, swing, crawl, glide or walk on an 5inch wood. It was fun and tiring plus I was a bit slow because I was sort of busy with Marc (note: it's not advisable to bring camera let alone hanging dSLR on your neck so bring at your own risk).

Left: That's the hanging bridge

Right: After bridge check point and more climbing! Because I have shorter legs, hence the climbing was a bit hassle and slower.

Left: I think we're not supposed to hold on to the pulley. Maybe, the correct way is this

Right: So you see, the obstacles are in continuous order.

Left: Yo Hab!

Right: This is quite tricky lah seriously. Because of the staggering swing, sometimes you just cannot avoid to miss the plank.

Left: This one was the hardest. You're supposed to do tarzan swing from one plank to another. In the picture the distant between each planks look so small but you probably make a split to reach the other plank. The four of us (me and the other 3 in front of me) so smart and we cheated!

Right: After the third fly, that's it! I got so bored of flying fox!

If I were to rate the whole thing, I'd give 5.5 out of 10. I'm not saying it's bad, just that for an adrenalin junkie like me, it's a rather safe adventure. If any non-outdoor person want to give it a try, I say go ahead. Choose Big Thrill (this one) instead of beginner's one. Hopefully the next post on skytrex, it'll be on Extreme Park.

Obligatory group photo - before and after

Everything went smooth, until I injured myself accidentally. -_- After the last swing, I unhooked both carabiner and pulley from the string and gleefully ran to sit down without hooking them back to my harness. So the heavy carabiner hit my ankle while I was already safe on the ground. How ironic.

I Loathe You

2011-01-10T21:30:00.014+08:00

My notorious iPod is forcing me to switch on the radio everytime I'm on the road. What really annoys me is that most of the time the song choices can be really nerve-wrecking and meh. What to do, that's how the radio works. So whenever these songs, just to name a few, Just the Way You Are (Bruno from Mars) and Love The Way You Lie (Ri-nooo!) are on air, I cannot help but to mutter (or the opposite) the usual vulgar stuff and ~~sometimes~~ usually joined by the other half.

Even worse when someone posted the lyrics as Facebook statuses verse by verse. Wtf? Rage! And so I clicked "Hide all by this-lyrics-teller" mercilessly. Seriously, if I need to know the lyrics, Google will do its magic.

Whether or not you like my music taste I'm so not sorry for being a nostalgic

2010

2010-12-31T12:39:00.003+08:00

2010 mostly brought so many tears of joy

and downfalls (which I only remember some, fortunately)

I don't think writing a chock-full list this year will do justice anymore. Good and bad things happened, I shared them with people whom I love, if not this space. Trust me bulleted list will only bore you to the max knowing that not many speak the same significant things.

If all goes well, I'm going to don the mortar board once again and take my degree scroll a year from now from one of the bad ass and hardest institution. I used to think how much I regretted studying in SEGi, I kid you not, but you know what? Now I don't anymore and why should I be?

Not only I got a super sexy black guy for my birthday (all thanks to my gay and handsome lover) or getting sexcited to see the awesome Kelly Jones and their timeless music but to see friends rocking in AJL or admiring their mind-blowing pictures/work, in a very humble manner, I'm in awe to be surrounded/working with hardcore people.

I had to suck it up when UK trip cancelled on me so the more reason to explore places in my own vicinity compare to the past three years combined. Oh yes, the idea of travelling, road/makan trip sounds fun enough and puts you in a torturing financial headache. I can just randomly plan going up Broga or somewhere so foggy but it won't be uber fun if I don't have the same flexible and to-go friends. And the thought of not being able to go with good company is unforgivable because at the end of the day you need someone to share the good times with, non?

Since I'm foreverly known as a clutz, I cannot forget few incidents where I locked myself in between front door and grill gate, got locked outside my room with all the keys still inside, fell down from the stairs (right from the very step till the last) yet still refused to skip class because I already missed a class, and how I misplaced his car key in Uni library. Please, too late for tomato-throwing ya!

One of the best things happened this year, for the longest time I finally get to spoiled myself lazing around with Mami dearest. Epic! Suffice to say I'm nobody to predict the future especially the term relationship but it has been great and absolute bliss. I'm humbled by the thought of having someone so deserving and worth keeping for. Endless thank you, from the bottom of my heart for how much I have outgrown part of myself (because the rest I did it myself lah!) from loving you.

I had a crush on you and loved you all the way. Thank you 2010

This Drives Me Crazy

2010-12-12T15:28:00.013+08:00

When it comes to driving, I think it runs in the family (or any other teenagers) that all siblings cannot wait to ~~take up the responsibility~~ hold the steering and drive -- proven that we all drove illegally first before signing up for the real driving Academy. Sister drove I-have-no-idea when but I remember mine was as early as Form 2 with supervision. In my defense I think I share the same trait as most Convent girls because yes, we are like that. We cannot wait to rebel from the forever bad-ass rules.

Although I didn't get my license at the qualifying age, 17, due to the expensive fee (only in KK mind you) and tied to after school job hence I didn't mind taking the bus to work when the parents were against it at first but later understood that I was/am already big enough to depend on them. Then I left KK for National Service and back to KK again, then 2 days later, I started my diploma in SEGi dragging all the exhaustion with me. So there.

Few weeks back, I was not able to drive legally for let's say more than a week? Survived 2 days without the ability to drive and the next, I gave up. I felt so hopeless and useless. The temptation to just drive illegally struck me all the time but I think I've had enough of that. It's not that I refused to upgrade my license from Pathetic to CDL but I had a long occupied week and most of the days, I was really really shivering sick few hours after Skytrex adventure. While the lover is so busy with work keep flooding in, I dare not kacau his time during the day and get him to drive me all the way to JPJ. So the days where I see the car parked in front of me, and the lover being so nice and drive me around, I feel very much flattered and dependent at the same time.

Halp!

And before you come to think that I expect men to do all pick up/driving/any typical guy job... no, I didn't really sign up for that. Fine lah, we're all submissive toward our partners but don't lah just dump it all on men. Although I love being at the driver's seat, I loathe people who expect, yes, assume you'll be their loyal SUPER cab for the sake of saving petrol or just simply dependant. I mean yeah it's nice to be sitting at the passenger's while the driver does all the risky multi-tasking job. Imagine what we have to go through - listening and responding to your nonsensical story while driving, changing lanes, and the fact that driver also have to deal with other obnoxious drivers. Think.

Why am I making such a big fuss is that I learnt how driving is a part of adulthood, at least to me. Car, no car, is not a valid reason. Whether you're a good, noob, or madafaka driver, that's a different story. When I have my own mini me's, the minute they turn 17, I'll say,

"Happy Birthday! You'll get your present this Saturday. A 4-hour driving course. You're welcome "

I'll give them the privilege I never had and force them to sit through in our already poorly-maintained academy because harping on others to get elsewhere excluding public transportation is a bit sad and frustrating to the boot. Been there done that.

Love, noob driver long time ago.

Not Really Back, Yet

2010-12-02T18:12:00.005+08:00

Photo by Arif

I'm still alive... and kicking

Just nothing remotely rant-worthy to be penned down. I have quite a few

But maybe, I have lost my mojo in blogging.

Peace and patience.

In Short, This is Sweet

2010-10-14T15:06:00.004+08:00

If you haven't heard already, the International Short + Sweet Festival has made its way to our shore since 2008 and I'm privileged enough to actually watch it live this year courtesy of Iman and Aiman. Divided into 2 different parts, dance and theatre, (your pick) it'll only need 10 minutes of your attention so... goodbye long-winded play. Phew!

God knows how I'm easily distracted if I were to watch a stage play for more than an hour long. Since it's Iman's first debut, about 8 of us came and show him the support that he needed, not knowing which play or whatever character that he's playing. Basically, me and Aiman went to KLPAC cluelessly, assuming it's just a normal play until at one point I got tired of throwing him questions.

Where's my ID?

This is Heaven

The Bear in the Pawn Shop

Wati dan Puan

This year's S+S Theatre, a variety of 11 (short) promising plays by seasoned/newcomer director from all kinds of genre, value, and issue - lesbian, animal, post modernism, typical marriage, smoking, loyalty, death, humor, government service, etc. Man I cannot be more amused how much I enjoyed their witty sarcasms. Funny but so true and I cannot imagine this being publicly televised judging by the one-sided ownership here. Although I think 2 or 3 plays were just so-so; because punching too much humor can still kill the whole mood lah okay. Towards the end of the show, we have to vote only one (!!!) play to be showcased during the finale. Tough one.

The downside of being the photog most of the time... my hands are always glued to the camera But it's alright. :p

Love, the libertarian.

Here Comes the Bride

2010-10-12T21:59:00.010+08:00

This is the first wedding ever that got me all teared up silently compare to all the other weddings I've attended in 21 years of my life.

The lovebirds walked down the aisle with one the best non-cliche (jiwang) song. I love non-typical themes/ thinkers.

Well-kept surprise. The funny part was when they play the song, Aiman randomly sing mocking Anuar Zain and I just lol-ed. Then suddenly someone sang very much like Anuar and what a jaw dropping moment when the real Anuar enters the ballroom. Wow. Not really a big fan, wait, have I ever been a fan...? Despite whatever you people keep condemning him, yes, he can really sing.

Why I got so distracted most of the time is because of the legendary icon who deserves the title actor/performer with all the other veterans sitting next to us.

Abang Ajis... Ohh Abang Ajis!

(Oh no, you don't need to squint your eyes )

Great love,

Great company,

Great night.

Peace and light

His Gay-est Day

2010-10-07T22:06:00.005+08:00

I'm no and never good at surprises. Be it me getting surprised or vice versa.

But I managed to pull off the biggest surprise (that's what he thought) for my special one. Although I must tell you, September and October hasn't been kind to me. Trust me when I say my time was so limited, and everytime I couldn't handle the level of things wandering in my head (I think too much), I do spring cleaning and yoga (flailingly! My goodness!). So the man who's been giving me pure joy and endless headache (and non-punctual - very the Malaysian ah you) unlike all the people I know, being the simple (low maintenance, humble, and not the irritating macho) kind of guy he is, haven't been celebrating his special day for years. Yearss. So I thought it would be sweet to just throw him a birthday celebration.

When I say celebration, my modest way of doing it is by gathering friends, and simple birthday dinner. By simple, I really meant simple, nothing over the top. Because my only priority was to gather everyone just for him. So it began with secret message, and I was skeptical everyone would show up assuming they're busy with work and fyp.

At the same time, I searched high and low for the birthday present, wanting it to be practical and can last for a very long time. I almost gave up by giving him the money, "go buy yourself, thank you." So in between those lectures and tutorials, I went to places, survey here and there.

In the mean time, I made few phone calls and trips for dinner reservation. Which I ended up cancelling. It's either too much or meh. So I thought where on earth to go...? Somewhere near, good ambiance, reasonable and yummy food? My brain almost shit bricks until I remembered a place. Located in the heart of Damansara.

Back to the secret message, I was so so pleased with everyone's response. Everyone in the list were more than happy to come. (You see, the things that we all would do) More reasons for all of us to be so psyched and cannot wait to see the look on his face.

So when the present is ready, I had to trick him into sending me to the shop and get it without him knowing. I was so excited I almost shove it to his face, "Nah, your present!" But I waited till the right time comes by tricking him going to breakfast and all the assignment excuses. I purposely chose the place where we always talk, hang out, jog, eat -- the park. I told him I need to take pictures of something carefree-ish (wtf wei) and he reluctantly dragged his lazy ass with me. First mission, accomplished! He was terribly in terrible speechless state of mind. According to him, something that he wanted and never thought someone would ever give it to him. I so smart *points finger on my head + grin*

So the bad luck begins (in sequence).

The person who attended my call, made a reservation on the day before the actual day. Good thing is, they have the best staff in town so we managed to sort things out, plus they're all so sporting!

When I was about an hour away from picking him up, he was freaking asleep.

The dress that I've been altering from a weird looking dress into a decent (at least) one acted out on me. My not-so-magic fingers had to work its magic and I just jelujur it hoping it can tahan for a few happy hours and not a single chance to pull an Incredible Hulk.

And the best part, just when I was about to leave the house, I open the main door which I usually will tahan it with my leg but not this time. The door just slammed! And locked! With the house-grill locked! The best of the best, my keys were still intact to my room door. So I got stuck in between the doors and almost cried shamefully since no one was at home. I could just write a post about this but I'll kiss. I don't know whether it was pure luck or what, out of nowhere my neighbour opens his door and saw me in desperate help. With his and His help, I managed to get out from the house (long process) with the birthday boy being kind enough to come fetch me instead.

As the hostess and a bit OCD, I feel awful la for being super late but I'm more than lucky to have friends who are so so sporting and not the uptight kind. The things that they do while waiting... cannot leave the place.

The ultimate goal is to make the better half of mine happy and that night alone is something worth remembering. I'm not gonna write a long winded list of what happened during the dinner.

A note to you, I hope you had the awesome-est time of your life. Despite all the ugly things happened, the amount of stress I had to deal with; cramping all presentations, assignments, not enough rest, jacked up phone bill, down with flu, etc. All this, cannot beat the look on your face. I love you.

Aramaiti!

2010-09-26T15:18:00.004+08:00

My short trip to the beautiful Sabah (sans the pilaks) was good. For a very-seldom traveller like me, I must say, IMHO, Sabah has changed a lot. I have to confess, I hated the road back then. I did not feel like driving due to the horrendous road and never been taken care of. So, forgive me dear hometown for I have judged you wrong. The road almost to everywhere is superb. Way better, way, way better than the ones we have here. Sorry lah I have high expectations on you dear KL, but you just seem to fail me each day I put my hands on the steering. The road here irritates me and it's slowly killing everyone's car suspension. Driving in KK is more enjoyable and I did not even utter a single curse while driving.

Alhough I was pressed with time, I still find the time to rekindle with the places I roll or the things that I can say my hideout. Not really hideout lah but more like guilty pleasure.

1. Grafitti - you don't get to see this much in KK (yet) but here's one of them.

2. Gaya Street - the most common tamu (flea market) to all Sabahans only on Sundays.

3. Thien Thien Restaurant -All the Chinese food ( I love), halal. All time favourite kon lou mee goes to Teatime Express (Wisma Merdeka).

4. The best ice-cream ever - Caprila (only RM2.50 twice bigger than McD cones with chocolate rice topping)

That's me! Ten years ago... :)

4. Yoyo - In KL it's called Bubble Tea? In KK we call 'em Yoyo! With or without Pearl (Bubble). Definitely much better than whatever bubble tea we have over here. My favourite, "Chocolate with coconut pudding, no pearl ah!" And it's not just coconut pudding (I don't think they use Nata De Coco).

5. Of course nowhere else can beat the cheap and scrumptious seafood bonanza in Sabah. From Salut, Gayang, Jesselton, Wisma Sedco, Beverly Hills, Inanam, etc. The one that I went is at Jalan Kasigui.

Ordered huge steam fish for 3, corn soup, mayonnaise lemon chicken, 1kg siput, kailan. All time favourite!

Verdict? Orgasmic.

Total: RM48 only. I repeat, forty eight Ringgit only.

Me: Ha...? Why so cheap??

Daddy: You see, daddy pandai find place ba! *giggles*

6. Every Sabahans pride, Tanjung Aru Beach. Enough said.

How can I not love my hometown?

Whatever mentioned here, they're only 1/10 of it. There's more so watch out for this space.

Love, sumandak.

Salam Lebaran

2010-09-17T18:40:00.009+08:00

Before I begin... I hope you had a happy Hari Raya with all the blessings you deserve.

Might be the dullest and painful time spent at home due to bad period cramp, but the best I had in 10 years. Amen to that. I always carry around this guilt and huge responsibility when Raya comes.

Being the second YOUNGEST in the family (mami's siblings only. Including second cousins, prolly the 4th/5th youngest) you can imagine the type of cousins I grew up with. My life revolved around cousins who were already matured yet fun. And no, I'm not ashamed of growing up so fast. Period.

So this year, instead of doing the usual, I'm adapting the changes in my family. I'm no longer the little girl because I have so many nieces and nephews running, hugging, and calling me Mak Cik/Auntie Mel and also the ones coming soon. With my most rapat cousins, getting engaged, another one is having her first baby.. And soon, a wedding I will be bridesmaid-ing. Damn!

And you know what's the best part of being an aunt?
I get to to make them do things for me. *Dr. Evil laugh*
And the sweetest, "Bye bye Macik Mel...! I lavv yuu!"
~~Someone give me a baby now, now!~~

Breakfast Talk

2010-09-06T23:15:00.009+08:00

Ramadhan is nearing its end in two days time so why not give a warm welcome to the month of Syawal -- Hari Raya, Hari Raya!

This year's puasa by far may not be the best. Being a helpless gastritis, it's such a shame that I reluctantly had to give in and breakfast for couple of days. The things that I learnt, if you ask: One, often visit to bazar Ramadhan can be avoided easily. Just don't go. (But I must say, Section 6' bazaar is the best, surprisingly). Two, I save many many moolah despite the Raya Sale insanity, I didn't get a single thing, I'll just reuse whatever I have. Three, I am a lot more patient on the road these days-- hoping this will last.

Although I'm less traditional (reason no. 2), I hope that's because I'm being humble and more practical. Even if I have to submit an assignment on the FIRST day of Raya for Australia's side, no big deal lah!

So to sum up my (food) fasting month...

Most importantly, thank you love, to you and the family for having me buka with all of you almost the entire month. The top notch service (hehe), bonding, terawih, superrrr mouth-watering food, and all the little things...

I'm utterly grateful and loved that I'm in tears!

Peace and Light

I Am, I Will, and I Can

2010-09-02T05:12:00.003+08:00

What doesn't kill you will only make you ~~live in trauma after trauma~~ stronger. I live in a heavy schedule with contagiously deteriorating values but my mind and soul always seek simplicity. I will and I can.

Reason to Stay Free

2010-09-01T11:41:00.004+08:00

Freedom is not worth having if it does not connote freedom to err. It passes my comprehension how human beings, be they ever so experienced and able, can delight in depriving other human beings of that precious right.

- Mahatma Gandhi

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia.

Fifty three years of Merdeka, Mami and Daddy born in '53, I was born on the 5th of March (53).

World Peace...?

2010-08-29T02:38:00.004+08:00

No, I did not watch Miss Universe 2010 nor I have the time to. However if you just wait and watch the whole clip, you'll get my drift

This is the most (in)famous Q&A in the history of Miss Universe Pageant. To be specific, the question directed to Miss Phillipines and her answer which undermined her real potential. The question itself was way unrelated and let's just say...

She did a major major impact to the world?

The ugly truth(s). Efficiency gone wrong caused travel issue. Or was the amount of death triggered by media's sensationalism?

An ex-cop hijacked a bus to restore his job. Logic fail, yes, no? No one knows what was on his mind but him.

I TAG, YOU TAG

2010-08-29T01:44:00.005+08:00

Few weeks ago, a friend of most Franciscans passed away. I still remember how it kept me awake for a dreadful hours because it was Monday and I was up since 6am and had back to back class. So at 3am, my (maximum volume mode) phone buzzed like crazy with incoming messages. Thara, who broke the news to me. Okay that time I was still mamai and then Naz texted me few minutes after that and we were both in utter shock. Then I un-sleep my lappie and turn to facebook because face it, it's a 2 second shoutout/rant channel. The news, twas frightening and alarming.

Not that I want to blow this out of proportion but I was rather more dissapointed with the status' updates. It is fine and thoughtful to offer your deepest condolences. What irk me the most was the freaking tagging. Intentionally or unintentionally (then you're forgiven).

You're only giving other people ~~and stalkers~~ one step closer to ~~stalk~~ check her non-private info/photos, but seriously tagging dead people isn't it too much? In diplomatic manner, that's unethical. My straight-forward manner, what the hell were you thinking tagging dead people? You expect her to read is it?

Poopy's Time

2010-08-16T23:11:00.005+08:00

Just because I can't do in on facebook, that doesn't mean I don't have other place to do so. I'm a cunning little woman, remember?

Despite all the extreme last minute changes, late dinners, dealing with obnoxious characters, more than three hours of waiting, sleepless nights, out stations, rugi thousands of ringgit, office politics, or how we both dread the horrendous traffic and weather...

I'm so mad proud of you for pulling it through with ethics, dedications, and hardwork. Now that your ads are all over the place; you name it! (And mind you, that's only 1/20 talents/skills you have), maybe in the future we can actually accomplish our mission together, no?

Here's for hoping :)

In the meantime, (not that you will read this but) you deserve a pint of baskin robbins and long-lazy-break. When you're done with all your PS3 shit, let's do more random stuff, travel and pictures. Like old times :)

Soon this will be you...

Purr purr

A JOKE, A MOOD

2010-08-08T01:32:00.006+08:00

When lover is spending the weekend away in Pangkor Island and friends are having a jolly fun epic picnic, I quarantined myself at home mainly because I think I've had enough of spreading sick virus esp to the housemate, classmates, and him. Ack! I'm so sorry! But maybe, just maybe it's musim sakit, no?

So to save another weekend go to waste, (read: me going cuckoo) I started the day having a 6am breakfast at the usual and went back home and curled up in my bed while it's raining! Ah, bliss!

I will go insane not being able to do anything thus more time spent on watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. I guess the laughing and giggling shows how crazy I sounded from my room. Nevermind. Cause I am more convinced anyone who does not enjoy watching it as much as I did is crazier and boring.

I feel so Monica right now. It's so obvious, damn it.

I'm Not On Top of The World

2010-07-23T02:36:00.011+08:00

but I certainly had my way to the top.

I know most of you will get the impression that I'm less adventurous. Am not. Just not that extreme. Although I have an on-going health problem, I prefer not to use it as an excuse, yeah. To be honest, the last time I had intense and drilling outing was SEGi's SLC (luxury) camping but of course nothing beats National Service.

Being an itchy feet, I desperately wanted to go to Broga Hill and feel those adrenaline rush again. Initially my plan, others just jumped in the bandwagon. The more the merrier, no? Since I demanded sunrise view, it's not like we planned or what but surprisingly we all stayed up till 4a.m.

Without stretching (I don't recommend this because I can really feel my veins almost impossible putus), breakfast, or anything, it took me 30 minutes to reach the first lookout point, stopped only once (!) for Redbull boost. Phew! That's an achievement! The journey down was a bit longer due to the congested trail.

Based on my experience...

Things You Should Know

It's not a 5-minute hiking!
There are people who camped the night before so don't act jakun when you see tents, people sleep and snore, even lady who wears telekung.
The place is dominated with little old people and kids, but way too many shutterbugs like me :p
Pee before going up. Must!
Wear proper shoes. Mine was too slippery. So I had dozens of almost-fell-down incidents.
Keep your Crocs in the shoes closet. I don't care if they're comfortable. You need protection more than anything else!
Try not to go during weekends.
Don't bother going up to 4th peak. Sempit!

Things You Should Bring

Torchlight (if you're going before dawn or sunrise)
Water
Insect Repellent? But I don't think it's essential lah.
Food, just in case you want to stay longer.
Good company that are extra supportive, co-operative, hilarious, posers, wise, handy cameraman and sporting.
Since you'll be sweating buckets, bring along small towel or wear sleeveless.
Bring light backpack (I wish I did) for extra food and mineral water.

The Shadys

A must-have group picture

And the candid ones

Left: Didn't realize I took the X trail until I browse through my pictures.

Right: Why settle for 2nd peak when you can go higher?

Be careful where you stand...and sit.

Left: Going down to 1st peak (lookout point)

Right: Can you see the white thing? That where we're heading. Definitely not a 5 minute hiking.

For what it's worth, this is breathtakingly beautiful

I Am Writing Something Outside My Guts

2010-07-19T23:27:00.007+08:00

...because I am content.

I cannot detest the fact that most of my activities include food (and lots of self-reminder on how to stay balanced). I feel like I'm violating my system. Oh no!

Had a very last minute buffet dinner at Shogun, One U. I still believe my presence was sort of unnecessary. Still, I found out that it's not entirely our fault because there was no specific request. It's just a pls come to Shogun later. I only had 4 rounds of stuff-anything-I-can. I just love love and can seriously die when I saw raw sliced salmon. Salmon runtuh, namanya. While I was eating, he pulled off the most disgusted face so far. Dude, it's like the most natural anti-aging thing with so many other benefits, for crying out loud! "Er, ya, but whatever you're eating now, they're only gonna last for the next three minutes in your life" he said instead.

~~Annyeonghasayo.~~ Konnichiwa!

(Taken from Naim's fb)

You gotta be kidding me! I want to thank you so very much!

I was quite fascinated when they talked about places and buildings in KL. So being an architect himself, he revealed all those nice places, condos, penthouse and etc. Well, that's not the most important thing here. What really amazes me is this one. Remember the man made Palm Island? No description needed. Allow me to show you this. Kudos (all pictures belong to) Bakri for the superb view of the island.

The shape of date Palm Tree. So surreal kan?

That's one hell of Residential Villas.

...and if you think it's awesome looking from that distance, here's a closer view of it.

swimming pool for each villas and and and and easy access to the beach anytime right behind your backyard. *faints*

My only fear is being washed away by tsunami. *shudders*

BBQ. It was his random idea and surprisingly everyone semangat and so kind hearted to chip in. Bought 5 plastic bags of lambs and chicken wings. Just by looking at the amount of lambs can seriously make me all kenyang already. We're suppose to go hiking the next day at 3am but it rained heavily and with that amount of food we stuffed down our throat, hiking? FFK! Hangat-hangat tahi ayam!

Adding to my travel/outing list, I've been harping on hiking Broga Hills and curious to see the so-called Lord of the Rings film location. Heh. I'm not the kind of girl who sits at home and stalk lookbook only, you geddit?

Gift hunting. :)

I am officially IMBA and broke. Bah!

I Am No Expert

2010-07-13T13:10:00.005+08:00

when it comes to love and relationship. Only with little experiences, honestly.

This can be a long list but I'll kiss.

It's the ability to learn/share/embrace the same and different interests together willingly. At the same time, take equal responsibility and circumstances.

It takes patience and compromise to untangle twisted situation when things get complicated without pulling off a huge drama or the need to pour anger both verbally and physically toward each other. Ego, too, is a harmful companion.

It's not just a one time thing. Relive it. However, be realistic.

Good foundation--trust, faith and respect. If you don't respect your partner, it's the same as disrespecting yourself. If you gain these three mutually, that makes your ride a worthwhile.

Bottom line is, love is hard to be defined because of it's infinite meaning. Still, there is a different level between love and infatuation.

You're not a day too soon.

Dont forget to love yourself

- Soren Kiekergaad

Our Blood's Still Young

2010-07-12T00:58:00.020+08:00

Thank you for the sponsor TV3 and Uncle, I had fun chaperoning 4 lads on a sunny day. Any given day will do though. Me chaperoning? Why? Read on. Anyway, I was a bit shocked to find out it the whole thing cost up to RM80 per person. I mean come on, it's only Sunway Lagoon. Don't you think it's too pricey? But heck, inclusive of breakfast, lunch and all access to all the parks (except extreme park) fine lah. I can close one eye.

With limited tickets, 5 of us hopped in Farid's car and drove to Sunway as early as we could. So semangat right? Instead of jumping to the wet area immediately, we took our time and jalan-jalan like bunch of tourists and sakais at the wildlife park. Something (uneccessary) that I should highlight-- the tigers over here are way healthier than the ones I saw in Zoo Negara and Malacca. Ironic much? I cannot imagine the nightmare of working as zookeepers here.

As we were walking...

walking...

and walking...

We reached here!

First ride.

The question is, do you dare?

Them all prepped to get wet. ;p

And the answer to my question earlier, I was having my period (second day) hence I can only go for the rides, watch them mandi and feel jealous all day long.

NOT COOL! Buttt since it's a TV3 event, they had this concert so pretty much didn't bore me at all. I get the perfect spot to enjoy the beachy environment--sat under coconut tree (shades), huge fan direct to my face (breeze) and artist performances (music). See? Not that bad lah.

Later in the afternoon we (very very hungry people) headed to Hartz Buffet Chicken. While eating, I keep telling myself that I'm not gonna spend a whooping RM24 (adult) here anymore again because I myself as a chicken lover was not impressed with the food. Variety wise, yes, they offer different kinds of salad, local kuih, and of course chicken which is good but they're all just meh except for the ice cream.

Excess food will be charged? I get the message. Yus forced a half plate of lasagna down his throat because it was really really meh. Then I came up with the most bimbotic idea--hide chunks of it anywhere people won't notice just like the one in Mr. Bean, remember?

K.O but them PS3 freaks still can drag their asses to get couple of games. The things that gamers would do.

Don't Die In Me

2010-07-11T13:00:00.005+08:00

You can't just hang me to dry or cool down.

I'm not a piece of cloth.

I, like many others, have feelings too.

The ever hungry Mel

2010-07-07T16:26:00.004+08:00

If it's not the PMS-big appetite kicking in, then I don't know what it is

Two (huge) slices of the best yet sinful cheesecake I've ever makan.

Large pizza for two just for the sake of cheesy larva only at Pizza Hut. Please ignore the pepper!

Lover's awesome and homemade-recipe creamy pasta (will post pictures on our next 'masak-masak').

Cupcakes, which they will customize for you on the spot (FOC!). Their chocolate fudge is a must-try.

(Mel: chocolate fudge, Elmo&CookieMonster&Bert: Oreo Chocolate)

Dined in Sakae Sushi, 8-9 plates in total.

Peace and light.

WC #5

2010-07-03T23:54:00.004+08:00

Him: Oya! Tonight Argentina!

Me: Wahh. Can win wan.

***

Little did I know, they were up against G!

One of my 4 favourite teams based on their colourful WC records.

(Wth wei I don't support teams based on boyfriend's pick or or or drop dead gorgeous players)

Had to watch it live-streaming with Spanish commentator. Mahaiii. They talked so fast and keep repeating the word, "ay ay ay ay!" I've never watched football match without bursting outrage in either one of the teams. Not until tonight. Meh. Unlike last night's game Brasil vs Holland, watching Holland play is like watching a bunch of Christiano Ronaldos. You get what I mean? No? Drama 'queens' I tell you. Yeah, he (and them) can kick ass but turn off lah every 2 minutes jatuh and whine about it. Even auntie next to me was so fed up layaning that kind of attitude. It's way different then watching tonight's game because even after lots of dive-fall, both opponent (reluctantly/sincerely) still shake hands. Now that is cool.

I will miss watching footballer with the speed of a bullet--Messi. Plus the ever supportive (on screen) coach, Maradona. Adios.

So please, don't cry for me Argentina. :)

WC #4

2010-06-29T12:30:00.005+08:00

Sometimes, two is better than one.

Watch this,

And that my friend is our very own Malaysian referee, Pak Din. :D

Way to go!

It's Saturday

2010-06-28T22:24:00.013+08:00

The day where my good-trustworthy radar failed me!

Urbanscapes and everything in between.

It's the art event of the year, that's what everyone kept saying.

I'm digging the whole concept where no one will judge what you wear and the company you're with.

You get what I mean?

Never mind.

I anticipated and expected too much. Too much!

Didn't know my way to get there.

Aiman came to the rescue but we got stuck in the massive jam at Jalan T.A.R.

Then I decided to just use Google Map.

And mistaken BHP with another BHP then it brought us to Kepong.

So we have to rely on the not-so-useful signboard and stick to Jalan Ipoh.

I was already grumpy by then.

Saq called me for the bazillionth time, it's her way of making sure we will not end up in Ipoh, capital of Perak.

The sweltering weather. (Unbearable, believe me)

Thank goodness for the perfect blue sky.

Lucky enough to get a parking within KLPAC

Overpriced drinks. Seriously.

I knew I was gonna be there for a while. Hence, the boots. Save your time and don't criticize!

Wearing:Laced tee (Locked Style), Leggings (thrifted), Jada Ankle Boots (Aof), Bag (Guess)

Vulgarity madness

I missed the Pindah Rumah event which they actually carry, yes angkat the entire rumah from one end to the main area.

I swear I did not use wide lens for this one! Damn I love Marc!

Remedy for extreme thirst! Milo ais and teh tarik (bad choice, honey). Took us less than 5 sec to drink half a glass

Someone just cannot wait for dinner and ordered roti telur bawang. -_-

Rushed home then an hour later New York, New York, off we go!

Taglatielle Arabbiatta with Giant Meatballs

RM21.90

Left: Carribbean juice breeze (Pink guava and pineapple juice)

Right: Strawberry orange Juice with Strawberry Kick (before stir)

After stir. One of their best-seller actually. Verdict? Too sweet for my own liking.

Beef Lasagna

RM16.90

Because I cannot eat pasta/pizza/lasagna without tabasco.

*Burps*

WC #3

2010-06-27T21:55:00.004+08:00

Come on lah Germany!

I'm a cat, I'm no shockproof

2010-06-24T21:31:00.016+08:00

I swear to God I almost died of shock today.

I was waiting for Cynthia at Centrepoint's Mcds Drive thru.

So I side-parked at the exit since I was too malas to go in and get something to buy.

I cannot afford to be careless in the car especially when I'm alone, just in case something happens.

I guess I was the only one waiting inside the car cause the rest of the cars parked behind and in front of me were all empty until I noticed there's this light green Proton Waja ( X ) because he was a bit lama there and once in a while I saw glimpse of him talking on the phone.

So I continued listening to the radio.

And then he moved his car and parked next to me, maybe because he was kind off blocking the exit.

This time I just didn't want to look because I was busy layaning the music.

Then, out of nowhere, a brown (forgot what kind) car came dashing from the opposite way, when it's obviously a one way street.

I was like

"Gila kah this car simply drive like that"

So they pulled over between me and X.

All of them ( mid 30s, garang looking, military hair) rushed out of the car like mad,

screaming, " HOI HOI!! CEPAT CEPAT!!"

as if they wanted to attacked someone.

And you know at this point, few of them gave me the sharpest look and the only thing in my head was fuck I'm so gonna kena rob!

Sumpah takut gila!

I had fuckin panic attack and within split second, I checked whether the door was locked.

I CHOKED, COVERED MY FACE WITH MY HANDS, AND THEN I DUCKED HOPING THEY WILL NOT SMASH MY WINDOW.

"THIS IS IT"

But I was wrong! they were trying to catch the Chinese guy (green stick man) I have no idea for what reason.

Screaming and chasing scene took place.

See the guy at the bridge?

The only thing I remember coming out from his mouth was,

"EI, MOTOR TU DAH LARI!!"

So if they're not after me, then why are they after him?

My brain said, maybe gangster or 3 line.

Impossible Ah Long because they are all Malay-looking.

I wanted to call the police so badly but I was scared of the possibility of them beating me up pula.

Plus, I was shivering my hands can't even grab my phone.

He struggled like shit to runaway from them but come on, 4 vs 1?

Na'ah.

I saw tonnes of people watching from McD itself, but nothing beats the feeling of being trapped 1 feet away from the 'crime' scene.

My heart was pounding like crazy the whole time.

I felt instant relief when I saw handcuff.

How one little thing can explain the whole thing!

If it wasn't because I was in awful shock, I could have taken a picture of him being handcuffed.

And then I saw them using walkie-talkie and the policewoman (dressed like a hip hop. Imagine Missy Elliot with the cap) had an earpiece in her ear.

Few minutes later, they left and took the Waja with them.

...and left me in utter silence.

This may be the most shocking (yet everyone finds it cool) event in my life, which I am one of the 'luckiest' to witness an undercover operation.

Still, I am overly thankful it did not happen like what I thought it would be otherwise,I won't be here blogging about it.

Thank you Poopy and Nana for hearing me out. (Although I was actually panting the whole time!)

Of paracetamol and porridge

2010-06-19T02:11:00.019+08:00

I've been telling him that the attack of high fever can be anytime soon. I know it cause I understand how my body works, I have strong instinct (unrelated) and I know what are the symptoms.

No appetite to the extend of whatever I eat, I feel like the food tastes so basi. The only food that I craved for is chicken porridge sprinkled with chopped scallions.
Heavy flu
Headache. It feels like someone's trampling my head and that really hurts.
I blackout if I move around too much. (It's the low blood pressure)
My body starts to shiver.
Sweating buckets.
Numb feet.
I'll cry, (not the heartbreak kind cry or because I want to but it just automatically happen and it sort of cools me down).
Drinking water is such a burden.
On and off nausea.
Vomiting
And most importantly, swollen throat that leads to throat infection and all the other things.

(Those highlighted in green, that's what I'm feeling now).

Is it because of the two months of disorganized and lack of sleep? Or the crazy and sudden crave for milo ais? I haven't been really sick this year excluding the flu and hay fever lah. Ironically, I did a "I'm really really sick" post last year also in June. Hah! Should I say "touchwood" now?

Don't worry, I am drinking gallons of water. It is depressing but what better way to distress than watching Toy Story and Home Alone? Missing: Porridge dipped with Yeow Char Kuay.

Drama King & Kung Fu Soccer

2010-06-18T15:24:00.005+08:00

This is one of the funniest WC moments to date. I dont know what they both were thinking, but watch carefully and try translating their gestures...

Scene 1 : Kaita kicks Greek's defender left leg. For shizzle my nizzle, gangsta, you can do that and let the world thinks you're ridiculous.

Scene 2: Greek's defender fell down dramatically! It hurts really bad, don't play-play okay.

Scene 3: When Kaita realized it's his immediate involuntary response, he went " Oh you gotta be kidding me" (0:07). Lol-ed that!

Scene 3: No mercy and nah, red card for you!

Scene 4: Kaita left the pitch with his face covered.

I would love to see this in comic strip.

Football Frenzy at Fever Pitch

2010-06-12T21:32:00.008+08:00

It's true that I'm a bit hopeless when it comes to football. Throw in any terms at me I'll probably reply with a blank stare. *Giggles* Those clubs, (Man U, Chelsea, Real Madrid, etc), I so cannot follow because their tournament confuses the hell out of me and I think the game drags from EPL, somehow it's happening all year round and often things like this happen to me, " I thought they won already? So why now they're not playing? Oh... it's a different league."

But World Cup is way different because it's once in 4 bloody years, those imported players from different clubs will be playing for their respective country for once we can drop headlines like "Christiano Ronaldo and Real Madrid; 20 million pound sterling contract deal, this is the only game I am willing to stay up late with one eye open (when I'm too sleepy), you can really see the progress of football teams and sometimes those underrated ones can surprise the hell out of you, the thrill is way better, and for the shallow reasons~~; checking out them hot stuff players and silently wish they're my boyfriends.~~

I can still remember vividly World Cup '02 because that's the only WC that I can brag and say I watched it religiously, especially the last match (Brazil vs Germany). Holy! the combination of 3R (Ronaldo, Robinho, and Ronaldinho) that time was damn kau-kau!

Since I didn't really watch the '06 game due to SPM, I vow (cheh!) that I'm gonna do the same as I did in '02. Oh my, that was 8 years ago! The timing is just perfect now because soon I will be assignment-free for a good period of time.

The wonders of World Cup

...income doubled and cash will keep flowing in for mamak, chinese or kedai melayu

...had funny argument with him because I was so psyched talking about WC and all I got was few nods, uh-uhs, ohs, and ahs.

...daddy and me keep texting each other with score updates and of course which team we're rooting for each game and that is not a normal father-daughter thing we do okay! Okay, it is now.

More posts on "homaigod, (country) wtf are you doing" this month. Don't worry about me confusing you with all the football jargons because there won't be any. Lol

So ~~place your bet~~, let's do the mamak and teh ais for 30 days. Notice that I didn't mention the country that I'm rooting for?

Israel's Attack on Humanitarian Aid

2010-06-02T11:18:00.019+08:00

The title states the obvious reason for this post.

I'm dealing with a whirlwind madness here but mine has got nothing to do with the universe.

THIS is the big thing out there.

Until when all this exorbitant greed over power can last any longer?

According to Aiman, one of the 18 Malaysian volunteers is his friend, Ashwad Ismail (news anchor and journalist of Awani) being held hostage now in Israel (as of June, 1st).

UPDATED: 12 volunteers are back home safe and sound meanwhile the return date of the remaining 6 still unknown. Source; The Star

Taken from English Al-Jazeera:

"demonstrators on board attacked the IDF naval personnel with live fire and light weaponry including knives and clubs".

Juan Cole,Com:

"There are two possible reasons for the violence. One is that the Israeli troops boarding the vessels met some sort of resistance and over-reacted. Aid volunteers are unlikely, however, to have posed much real challenge to trained special forces" operatives.

Come on, do you really think with that amount of volunteers with thousands of wheelchair and medical aid, waving white flag as a sign of 'we come in peace' are lunatic and kamikaze enough to attack all of you? I mean, which army does a commando style air-drop at night just to inspect a ship?

and according to New Straits Times

“They can do anything they want, break any international law without care and they will be protected by certain people.” - Tun Dr. M.

It makes sense now why our passport is not valid and applicable in you-know-where. I don't know how one can just pull the trigger and end a life. This world seriously hunger for peace and more diplomatic brains. I've already voiced out my concern to UN (although I'm only a normal and an invisible citizen). It's the least that I can do because the last time I checked, I don't run this country. God be with them.

Video Reel 1

2010-05-22T15:55:00.004+08:00

Sneak Peek of Video Reel 1
All rights reserved.

Big thank you to all you awesome talents and camera man

Thoughts

2010-05-21T22:01:00.009+08:00

And so I have to bail out from this month's trip/travel to Singapore thanks to the hectic schedule. I long for the day where I can just sleep the day away like a fat cat/ or be productive.

I miss ...
Main layang-layang,
Eating tau foo fah at the park,
Drive around with my other half who has zero sense of direction,
Getting out of the KL-radar,
Taking pretty and sometimes tragically fail pictures,
TV series/movie marathon,
Eating and lepaking without time limit,
Going jogging/walking,
Spending time with baby girl,
Yoga,
Cooking,
Cuddling Mot and PG till I throw up hairballs,
Spending the day away with lover and come up with a 10 year-plan,
Most of all the family.

Speaking of TV series, I have the complete 10 seasons of F.R.I.E.N.D.S and How I Met Your Mother. How's that? Grey's Anatomy Season 6, next! No wait, when the hell can I watch it? Ughers!

I'm all out of place

2010-05-21T21:29:00.006+08:00

It gets too much that I need to de-stress myself.
I realized I can sleep with my eyes open in class.
While my brain wanders making its own to-do-list.
However and unfortunately, I'm swamped with work.
It has almost been 2 months that I haven't been sleeping properly.
Pulled too many all-nighters I nearly broke my brain.
Missing those outings.
Deadlines keep pressing me every week and for what?
Quality.
Soon, this race will be over.

And so far it's fucking worth it. I'm hunger for High Distinction.

Thank you love. Your optimistic mind turns me on.

Who's Your Idol?

2010-05-14T23:56:00.008+08:00

Holy Shit! Since the beginning of the show, I told him my favourites in American Idol this season. With this exact quote,

"I like Casey for the very obvious reason, he's so hot with orgasmic voice but kan I hate the fact that he's so famous with that stupid I'll-rip-off-my-shirt-for-Kara and he looks a bit like your brother kan, (disgusted look on his face) maybe the hair... Lee, is because he's just so good. Damn it! And Crystal, so genuine. You get what I mean? And you know what I don't care who is gonna win but if these three get into the finals, they are all winners already. I dont think I'm gonna pick a winner."

Bahaha! I predicted right! ~~I should become a palm reader and fool everyone~~

MISSION FAILED

Ok that's all. Back to analyzing 7 dreadful readings. BYE

Have you ever really loved a woman? ;p

Stereophonics Part 2

2010-04-29T03:16:00.007+08:00

Rock or anything to do with 'noisy' concert, I don't really put much expectation and I dont need to be told how messy it's going to be; technical problem, suara pecah here and there, flat, and live version is much disappointing than album version. (Long sigh) But not Stereophonics ok. I'm not rubbing it to your face just because I went to their concert. Based on what I saw and heard, I'm surprised how awesome his voice actually is live; I wasn't expecting this. I dubbed them as one of the most talented and original bands. Don't come near me and tell me stupid nonsense or I will smack your head.

Biggest fans

The venue was smaller than I expected, so this means... closer view of Kelly Jones. Fuck yeah. Such a perfectionist band - the lighting (super duper cool because it rhymes with the music and mood, sound system, only 1 interval, songs arrangement like very the terbaik. Very well-planned.

I was completely turned off with 3 things. Waited 1 1/2 hours to start, the alcohol and smokes. Non-smoker and drinker like me can really die if the thing drags for another 3 hours. This mat salleh in front of us drank too much that when it's only halfway she was already drunk to the max. Why? Her body moves like a snake I tell you and when they play slow numbers, she became very horny. I LOL-ed when she rubbed her body against Mr. Lover. Lama ok!

Dakota Lovers

They performed 80% of my wishlist songs. Hoooyeeahhh!

~~Dakota~~ (must) *The most anticipated song! A great ending to the show and I was jumping all out like crazy
~~Maybe Tomorrow~~ (double must) *The most sing-a-long song of the night besides Dakota and Traffic
Rewind
~~Just looking~~ ~~My own worst enemy~~
~~Innocent~~
~~Have a nice day~~
Lying in the sun
~~Traffic~~
You're my star
~~Vegas two times~~
~~I miss you now~~
Handbags and gladrags (must)

I got out from the place with busted ears, slightly rabun because of the lighting, and strangely serious backache. I'm sorry I stepped on your shoes every time I jump. :) My RM118 didn't go to waste, and thank goodness we last minute decided to go or else I wouldn't how it feels like to be in an ass-kicking showmanship concert. They set the par really high. Band with fantastic tunes but sadly very underrated.

And if you still think their quality that I'm bluffing about, watch this!

Videos taken from Youtube; outrageuk, rdapanda

Oh yes I had an orgasmic night.

Stereophonics Part 1

2010-04-26T22:03:00.009+08:00

Been listening to this Welsh band on and off since high school. But I keep listening to their songs (repeat mode) early this year. When Lan told me and lover that they're coming to KL, I was like,

Are you seriouussss...? April busy month...
(I WANT TO GO. PULL HAIR)

Go to their website here

After Shisha, I went home and straight away check online to confirm it but to no avail, they didn't mention anything about going to KL, only Singapore. Mahaiii. Dissapointed but it's okay. Save money. Then last week I checked KLue's page and look what I found, 'Stereophonics live in KL'. Homaigod, pulled hair for the second time. The next day, after Friday prayer, lover and Farid picked me up for lunch and then when I told him about it we both macam didn't really want to go because the timing is a bit off. With me need to finish up 3 assignments in a week and him project week. Cannot go. So we pretend the conversation didn't happen for next few hours and then decided to just go, (and surprisingly Farid + spouse are going too) with one condition, cramp in Monday and Tuesday with work to avoid doing last minute work. To date, I've been burning midnight oil for 4 weeks in a row.

List of songs I'm harping for them to play

Dakota (must)
Maybe Tomorrow (double must)
Rewind
Just looking
My own worst enemy
Innocent
Have a nice day
Lying in the sun
Traffic
You're my star
Vegas two times
I miss you now
Handbags and gladrags (must)

Since its the Keep Calm and Carry On tour, I'm not surprise if they don't perform half of my song wishlist. Bummer.

Stop comparing them with Oasis please

We Did It!

2010-04-25T03:24:00.013+08:00

Pictures above taken by Arif

Learning is a life process. Take it as your first hurdle. Stand tall and take pride with what you have learned in SEGi.

- Tan Sri Dato' Seri Megat Najmuddin bin Dato' Seri Dr. Haji Megat Khas, 24th April 2010.

I really thought that it's just going to be a long day, where I should just go on stage, shake hand, take the damn tube and pose for the RM120 worth of pictures I paid. That's it. Man, I was damn wrong. The moment they - those who wore colourful and grand looking robes walked in, my heart immediately filled with mixed emotions. The whole time I was trying to answer why the sudden feelings. I came up with this.

This is the time where I feel like my name look so pretty to be listed in the booklet and being called on-stage to get the recognition of a diploma student not forgetting making the family all teared up. But most of all, this is the 20 seconds of limelight in my life telling that I deserve to be awarded after 2 1/2 years of hard (or sometimes last minute) work and the 20k that I've invested; along the way I crawled my way to the top, stumbled too many times and at the end of the day it's one the puzzle that reaffirms of what I want to do in my life.

The ladies

Words of encouragement and heart-to-heart talk with Ms. Fiona

The women in my life

The bestie

These are the faces...
That I first met in Photography class for the very first time,
End the very last day with the same people.
So proud to see them walked up there looking so hot flaunting their scroll,
And to be reunited at the final stage for god knows maybe the very last time with something in our hands. (ehem, not just a class-camwhore pictures)

I wish you all the best in this shitty world.

The infamous pose

Did I make you proud, mami?

Slow down, slow motion

2010-04-21T03:10:00.004+08:00

I'm lost somewhere in the transition. Emotionally unstable that none of you would ever understand. If the things that I'm seeing is as the same as what you're thinking then how can that make sense? I give up. I really can't do this anymore.

I need you.

What Matters If We're One?

2010-04-21T00:05:00.008+08:00

Mr. C : Can anyone answer what's by election?
Everyone: *looked at each other*
Mr. C: If I were to give you all quiz right now, this is definitely not a good sign.
Everyone: LOL

His 20 years of experience as a journalist in The Star really got me thinking and I assumed that he must be at-least a pro government. However, when talking about the moderation of our country's freedom of speech (okay, I just made that up), he asked us on our opinion whether the filtering-publishing system, how much is too much? That's when I knew that he too, struggled. And so the debate went on for an hour. Although my views on political issue is somewhat in between, take my words, if you're in the communication field, no matter what you still have to be in the know. I'm talking about the ruling system and politics. Don't just memorize all the superficial names in fashion or entertainment.

I don't normally write anything related to this issue, but as a communication practitioner/document designer/journalist the names they keep calling us, I think I need to express my view on this matter. Love it or loathe it, this is your free land so be proud of where you stand.

Let me give my 2cents on what I think about the recent campaign, 1 Malaysia. I sincerely like the idea and concept - at first. Hands down. But I beg to differ, I slowly changed my mind mainly because...

1. It's about embracing one unity, meaning to say, we are all the same right? I still don't see it that way because in reality, I still see Malay-malay, Chinese-chinese, Indian-indian... You get what I mean. The race sentiment is still there.

2. Why is it that everytime when I have to fill in the form, I still have to fill in my bangsa, if 1 Malaysia is not about we're all the same than this whole thing that I'm crapping is wrong.

3. Whenever there is a poster showing the diversity of our culture, why only muka Melayu, Cina and India? What happen to the Orang Asli, Sabahans and Sarawakians? Because we have this really distinct look too you know. Please don't shut us out... it's enough that we have to bear with people who still think we live on trees.

4. I'm one of the best example on how people still label you. The situation is like this; I'm the type of person who will go to places and just try to be like a normal Malaysian. But whenever I sit/lepak/masuk places like kedai warung or mamak, I get the weirdest stare and scanned look because I am sepet. Oh well, don't worry. I'm so used to it.

5. This one really disappoint me: I've heard and read so many blog posts on why do Sabahans, when they live or study in the Semenanjung, they tend to change their slang? Don't bash people and accuse them of 'lupa daratan' or 'trippin' when a Sabahan speaks like a Semenanjung. I don't get it. You're a Malaysian, so you are entitled to learn every slang in Malaysia. Isn't it a bonus if you can converse well in Penang, Kelantan, Melaka, or whichever states' dialect? If you're so semangat to speak in English or other international language then why not our own? If you look down on me for speaking different slang, trust me I don't give a damn. Shame on you for judging people based on their slang.

6. As for the bumi and non-bumi... (Speechless) I hairan, in adv or such, these three bangsa are usually the symbol of muhibbah. Then if the two are so important, why not just give them the title bumi already?

I'm not disputing the implementation because based on the 8 core values, yeah I think it's acceptable. Perhaps we should give more time for a change to happen because things like this can't be changed a.s.a.p. It takes times. If an African-American can become the President of the States, who knows the day might come where everyone's equally equal here?

In an ironic manner, I'll be doing a full-fledged analysis and campaign on the campaign 1 Malaysia (analysis, research, publication theories, editorial spread, short documentary, website, brochure in one assignment - meaning to say there'll be more. Individual. Yeay!). How's that? This should be very interesting.

I still prefer the previous years campaign, Negara Kita Tanggungjawab Kita. How about you?

Something New

2010-04-19T04:21:00.005+08:00

This layout is beginning to bore me everytime I log into it. Maybe because it's a bit stretchy? Therefore this blog, I need to revamp it soon when I'm done with stuff. I finally decided to take one step further in blogging, no no, I'm not talking about me writing for advertorial purposes but to expand my knowledge + writing and share my passion . I'll dedicate this blog not only for my daily rants and musings, but also photography and travel (as you all can guessed already), food, general issues, style (very minimal), artwork and more to come along the way. Also, if all goes well I will have another proper photolog with my love some time soon for the love of sharing and as humble-mini portfolio - as we are all learners, no experts.

To save all the hassle of me watermarking pictures and to avoid unnecessary misunderstanding, etc (just refer to the sidebar), everything here belongs to me unless stated, so if you wish to use any of it for any kind of reproduction, kindly credit to me or link it to my blog yeah. :)

Hysteric

2010-04-14T04:05:00.007+08:00

I'm actually in the midst of doing IDM's assignment, where we have to pick a social issue, analyze(well, all the writing stuff lah). Pages of them. Not only that, one must produce (I use the word produce because basically we have to do all) a minimum 3 minutes short film/video reel (trust me it's not a one day work), edit (this is the part where it will kill me because this is definitely not a one day work), storyboard, storyline, treatment, 2000 words, and summary. Individual. I purposely highlighted that. Can you imagine the workload?

Come and work with me then you know my style. I tend to be annoyingly selective and anal. I don't care if it's something that others do not care about, but if you put quality and effort in it you never know maybe 10% of the audience in the room might be moved by it. If it didn't, then at least it's worth the try. I salute my friends because unlike me they're doing all those big names like drug abuse, HIV, smoking or something that's commercialised already? And I'm only doing on the most under-looked issue but yet everyone will go through this just the matter of time and place. How I feel so small compare to them.

I was chatting with my love, on what I should do since he's way analytic than me. Managed to brainstorm the storyline here and there. So I kept the tv open and listen to this one particular song and I know now exactly how I want it to be. I knew that song has got to be my background music.

I need (TBC):

lots and lots of que cards,
Stop motion; GO FOR IT,
no narration, but just captions,
only 2-3talents,
bubbles,
sound of birds chirping,
plain baju,
gorgeous heels.

I will never get away with problems, so I'm listing them down and think of a way out at the same time.

1. How to edit when they only provide Mac's FCP for editing because clearly I do not own a Mac?
Chill. Shoot the video early (please avoid procrastinating) so that I have more time to do it in Adobe Premiere at home.

2. How to do stop motion? I have never done it before.
Go take lots of pictures and render them patiently. Be experimental.

3. I'm no pro when sketching for the storyboard. Plus it's so mafan to draw and then scan it again.
I want to hug the genius who invented Tablet! Just plug it in and draw. Phew!

4. My Adobe Photoshop CS4 is expiring soon.
Go crack it! Duh!

5. I need Garage Band for the mixing and all.
Finish up the video then later convert it into something that's compatible with Mac. Or else, Plan B.

So God please be with me, I really want to make this work. I am so emotional right now, maybe, just maybe because this is a meaningful project for me.

Visiting Malacca

2010-04-11T22:43:00.008+08:00

.....and Georgetown is like learning the history of Malaysia.

I just got back from Malacca, quite a better trip than last year's one. Managed to explore places and reminisce the slowly-forgotten memories of 1995's Malacca trip with Mami and Sis.

Driving on the road for hours can be so dead boring but knowing that I can talk and talk (and sing till it hurt your ears) 24/7 made the journey less tiring and boring. True what! Thank goodness for the super fine weather, less hot -- less sleepy.

Such a sweet trip and something that we both needed to break the tension. Especially me. If I accumulate the amount of walking we did, I think I can finish a whole round of walkathon. No, make that two. Phew! I'm damn head over heels I have such a great travel companion. Thank you!

"Merapik"

2010-04-08T04:36:00.007+08:00

The reason why I'm blogging at 4.30am is because I just can't sleep. Mau tidur but I just can't because I have to wake up at 6 but knowing that I know I will tidur mati for not having enough sleep so better not. Even worse, tomorrow will be a long day until malam - NON STOP

..................................................................................................................... <- that's all I can think of now

Ok, ok, I'll make use of this post.

Starting of this week - one word, what the hell? Got injured so badly, bad monologue (Fuck lah. This is why I never wanted to join drama in high school. I'm just not good at it.), er, that's all for now? No, wait, the lack of sleep. Oh, well. Don't we all?

Oh no... I think I'm so addicted to Garage Band! No............. Because I'm far beyond, 'I can afford.' I just love playing around with the sounds. Can die wan.

B to the flat, can you derma your ESP so that I could get my own Garage Band? I think that should be enough. Barely know you and random but trust me this is the sleepy me talking.

Ok, gonna finish up another work while waiting until it's 6a.m. because I'm gonna go for healthy breakfast with my sexy lover. (wuuuuttt)

Ne, nescafe panas satu!

Lady, M.I.A

2010-04-03T23:08:00.007+08:00

Can you see that pile of papers? That's only a reading for an assignment plus another 100+ pages which is not in the picture. If you still don't get it, it means that I have another batch of reading for the next assignment. Homaigod. (Not in a stressful way) Presentations, super long essays, research papers, blogs, analysis, websites, traveling (unrelated). Hence, the M.I.A.

Just as much as all these are slowly pushing me to the edge - 8 hours of sleep in 3 days? Good job! I'm not satisfied, but rather pleased with the output. I can put up with all this and ~~procrastinate less~~ manage my time properly besides I'm almost done with first semester pun. So, bring it on baby! Kata, multi task? The famous quote I keep hearing everyday!

Studies aside, I cannot wait to get my feet back doing some freelance again and this time I will be covering outdoor events not just in KL but everywhere! Wahey! Oh, and also Hamzie wants me to be part of their production team again for their big event I can't really remember when... I'm not sure whether it will be a collaboration work or what. But why not kan? Well, that really depends on my availability lah.

When everything's settle next week, leave your car keys and pillows behind. Just bring your music and let's sing in Malacca.

What I really need right now is chocolate milkshake with whipped cream and beef lasagna extra cheese.
Or perhaps nasi lemak babi?

Cast Your Vote, NOW!

2010-03-25T23:55:00.008+08:00

Mark your calendar everyone! Because the annual Earth Hour is back!

When?
27th March. This Saturday!

Where?
Anywhere. At home, office, etc.

How?
What do you mean how? Just turn off your lights at 8.30pm for an hour. Simple!

How bout do it for more than an hour, huh?

Hot Air Balloon

2010-03-25T11:27:00.008+08:00

I've been looking forward to go to this event since January. However, I feel nothing but close to disappointed because of how it was organized and the false schedule, homaigod, don't even want to talk about it. Wanted to just go there and take pretty pictures but it turned out to be so picnic and tourist day when the other two shows up. Some more we both wore maxi ~~holding hands and be the maxi couple the whole day~~, it's as if we so read each other's mind. We sort of explored the whole place even when it's scorching hot. My favourite part of the event is when we're all lying down on the grass. Definitely better than Taman Layang-layang and less crowded (Perfect spot for picnic, sleep, be romantic, camwhore). So drained, that when we all reached home, we mandi and sleeeep. We wanted nothing more than that. Lol.

Thank you for your company because I don't think anyone else would tahan to walk under the super sunny weather here and there with me. No one does it better than you. Disappointing, yes, but we managed to not make it a waste.

Jenting

2010-03-12T20:14:00.006+08:00

It was initially my plan to go for short vacay because I think I've overworked my body and mind a bit too much. Out of nowhere, the topic was on the table and since everyone is class-free on Thursday evening, we decided to drive up to Genting. Random enough, no? Before leaving, we found out that we'll be staying overnight in Awana courtesy of Mr & Mrs Farid - thank you for the tickets too! Boy, we, or at least I had a really good time.

Despite feeling so tired; I drove all the way up to Awana (gave up halfway up to the theme park), hungry, camwhore-ed, but most of the time we were laughing all the way until we hit the bed. What would we do without you, Ayen. Lan and Farid, I thank you for snoring the night away. I indeed had my beauty sleep. NOT!

(6% of the pictures we took)

So now I'm back to doing and living the boring side of my life.
Next trip,*fingers crossed* can't wait.

Hey you, can I pretty please tag along with you to Eurotrip? This is so unfair.

Laila's Instake

2010-03-08T12:37:00.010+08:00

I just don't seem to trust the mainstream radio anymore because one, the songs are being overplayed with overrated ratings, two, they are just so in-trend. And to get out of that zone, I don't mind going to gigs or acoustic performances and just chill with friends.

Pesawat, Stonebay, Brainhead, Rashdan Harith, REZA SALLEH, Freeloader Inc, Auburn, Estrella, Zee Avi, Otherside Orchestra, Bo Amir (drool) and adding to the list, Instake. And I still believe there's more...

I tagged along with the Instake-ers to Laila's Cafe & Lounge for some acoustic performance. Being a full-fledged rock band, contradicting to what they had performed, they totally nailed it that night. Come to think of it, if you're a good performer, just throw them different genre pun jadi. (not dangdut lah! duh) To know their what and where abouts, go to their fb page ok. Clickey-clickey

A not-overrated place, a place that you can enjoy good music, Laila's Cafe & Lounge it is. If you say similar to Lepaq Cafe, maybe. But the ambience is way different. If you're not familiar with Plaza Kelana (nearby Plaza Glomac), ahah, good luck! Probably the downside of the area I dare say is, it's not fully developed yet? But, tell me which cafe you can sit and enjoy the lake view at the same time? I'm not talking about KK lah. The interior and an array of awesome stuff to do (mind you, they even held a slumber party. how cool is that?) suits their concept of being 'home away from home.' Oh, how can I not mention their A+ service?

Since Instake performed last, we randomly get to perform and sing for fun. The singing was ok until Rebecca (owner) jumped in and blew us away with her magic fingers. Trust me when I say that she's the type yang can instantly compose a song, out of 2 notes only (what else if combine with other notes)! I don't know how else I can describe her magic-fingers-ness because she freakin made us want to hit the piano class. -_- I've watched and listened to so many people (Franciscans esp) play the piano but no one has ever gave me goosebumps. Some more she surprised us with her singing and on-the-spot lyrics. Before leaving, I managed to talk to her and she's actually a songwriter/singer. (Also from the band Fish Eye). Jealous to the max. How I wish I have you talent.

All credits for awesome pictures should be directed to Haymety love :)

E-mala

2010-03-08T01:44:00.006+08:00

Another March baby - Imara

Picture courtesy of Arif

This Is For The Lover In You

2010-03-06T15:00:00.019+08:00

I think I was born in love.
- Babyface, March 5th.

Ten years ago, Kenneth Edmonds was suppose to perform in Malaysia however for some reason they canceled it. And someone actually said 10 years too late. It's never too late! He's 51, and most probably this will be his first and last concert here, no?

I always trust my sister and her taste in music. She'll never go wrong because eventually they'll turned out to be icons/legends. She's got Babyface' album back then when it was so bloody expensive. RM49.90. Now mana beli CD, semua main download. In a way, she's a major influence to me. So when I actually went to his concert, I texted her. Didn't want to call or else she'll scream like a mad woman. I bet if she sees me she'll chop me off into 9.

I must say our own local singer, Najwa jazzed up the atmosphere for opening act. She's G-O-O-D. Sorry I really thought you're Melissa Indot. Been looking forward to watch her perform live. But oh well. Later on Sarimah Ibrahim took the stage, (no, no she didn't sing!) during interval. She's just so hilariously funny and spontaneous. She really cracked us up with her jokes.

WHEN HE STARTED SINGING ALL OF US WENT NUTS. You cannot imagine me screaming my lungs out seeing a legend in front of my eyes. I just couldn't stop smiling (the whole night actually). From ear to ear, mind you. Guess what song's next? Everytime I Close My Eyes! One of the most romantic song ever been produced and I grew up listening to the song ever since primary 1 (still do until today!) before I go to sleep, drive, etc. It's so sentimental to me that tears started rolling down on my cheeks. All this while I have to depend on iTunes to listen to it but he's singing it to me, I mean, us.

Not only he sang his own repertoire songs (For The Cool In You, Never Keeping Secrets, When Can I See You Again, etc) but also the ones he wrote and produced. Perfect combo! Numbers like Eric Clapton's Change The world, You Look Wonderful Tonight, Boyz II Men's I'll Make Love To You, End Of The Road, just to name a few. It's like watching 5 different artists perform for the price of 1 ticket. No way...!

Any singers out there will say the same thing about MJ; legend and legacy. So does Babyface. He told us his MJ story, how they met, etc.

I was born in Indianapolis, Indiana...
*This one person suddenly clapped hands and scream like crazy* YEAAHH!!!!
....You're from there...?
*everyone* LMAO!

As he was sharing his thoughts and all, he promised to himself that whenever he performs, he will pay a tribute to MJ. Before singing, he said that this song was recorded by MJ but he never imagined that he will be doing this for him. Gone Too Soon. One word, solemn.

If I were to describe the night, I'd say it's personal and priceless. With a good companion, double bonus. Plus, you know how sometimes singers after 5 songs they'll run to the backstage and God knows what they're doing. Change baju? -_- And trust me his voice is way orgasmic during live concert.

I don't have any pictures that night because my phone camera won't do any justice and we were not allowed to take pictures using camera. Ish. Why la I bring a lomo cam! Boo! Your fault. I really wanted to just snap away but the thought of losing my cam is a bit too scary. Its ok. I still have it all in my head.

And every time I think of it I pinch myself cause I don't believe it's true...

I Feel Wonderful Tonight

2010-03-06T03:19:00.010+08:00

Be warned: Long post!

So yeah I just turned 21 without having any eve party or such. The day before, I was up since 6am and got back late evening. Spending too much time on the road pretty much sucks all the energy in me that when I reach home all I feel like doing is lie down on the couch and sleep.

Saq: Do u have classes tomorrow?
Me: No. Why?
Saq: Let's have brunch tomorrow. Besides, it's your birthday!!
Me: (Oh shit, its tomorrow? so fast?) oh yeah. ok sure... :)

That's how bad period and being busy affected me. I really didn't have anything extravaganza thing to do on the day

But on the day itself, after picking up my love, (I just love your orchid face!) we went straight to Delicious for so-fat lunch. We talked and laughed our heart out. Woman, I love you. She insisted on buying me something because she didn't want to lose to that someone. Lol. And of course I know because you love me long time. I am still gleeful that I walked out from the mall with a spanking new bag. Later on, we both went to this Arab kopitiam in PJ with the rest of the guys without realizing something fishy is going on. Hah!

So that evening, we both took the train to KLCC (because I just hate getting stuck in the jam in the evening if we were to drive) because the original plan was to have dinner and toy around with my Holga since I still have couple more frames left. So as we were talking, he asked,

"Eh, not today Babyface punya concert?"
*tunduk for 10 seconds* "Don't even mention it!"

When we reached KLCC, we went to the toilet and surprisingly without any hesitation, we headed straight to the park. Ok, that's weird. Because I was feeling a bit dehydrated and I thought we could just stop somewhere and grab a drink. Instead we walked all the way to KLCC convention center because apparently he said we could probably find nice spot to take picture. Weird. But naive is I. I was a bit annoyed at first when we started walking so fast that I snapped

"Ok, can we like slow down coz I'm having period cramps?"
"Oh ok, sorry sorry."

As we were walking, we noticed there's this huge crowd waiting outside the convention.

"Look, look, look! I bet these people are going to Babyface concert. Jealous!"
"Come let's go there, mana tau Babyface keluar and then we can become paparazzi and take his picture" (ala Al Gore style. right!)
"Ee, I shy la.. let's go back"

After so much reasoning, I relentlessly followed him. He was so confident to even checked out the noticeboard where Plennery Hall is. That's it! I thought he was being irritatingly ridiculous and decided to leave. Too late because we were already going upstairs. All I could think of was the embarrassment of going back down for nothing! So I flipped off.

"Oh no, I don't feel like doing this. Let's just go..."

Suddenly this lady approached us and I was so scared we might be intruding. She asked if we needed assistant and he confidently said (while I was busy looking for an exit!)

"Where is the Door 3?"

And then I caught him with an envelope! The word AXCESS caught me off guard and as far as I know AXCESS = concert tickets! I immediately tunduk 90 degrees and cried in disbelief! The lady just smiled away with the oh-she-must-have-been-tricked look. He had to pull me to the side and calm down. Of course I couldn't!

"How, when, where, why...? I heart attack u know tadi! Please don't pull off this stunt again!"
"Hehehehe..."
... so I took out my phone and called my other sayang,
"Hello, you know whaaatt...."
"I know, I know..."
*still crying* "You knew? (WTF) and you didn't tell me? How can you not tell me?"
"Because he told me not to!"
... passed the phone to him.

I get to see my all-time favourite singer/songwriter ON my birthday. fcnirgbniusdfnrui!!

A note to you my love, besides giving me 10minutes of heart attack, you made my day even more meaningful. Effortless. Sharing the night with you is definitely pure joy.

The reason why I didn't suspect anything is because the ticket is a bit too expensive even if you have to sit really far behind, plus I've already put the thought of seeing him perform live somewhere in the recycle bin. So now everything make sense. All the white lies, how everyone pretended they know nothing about this padahal they knew and in a way planned it out. Thank you for making it happen.

My dear Lam, I feel you. All this hoohah about turning 21 is so overrated kan? Missing you too!

This is definitely one of the best days in my life. I'm so overwhelmed with everyone's effort to call, text, (that includes facebook too) just to wish wish me a simple happy birthday. What else to those who spent the day with a boring person like me :)

Thank you to all of you, family and friends, who had to put up with me for 21 years. I don't need birthday cake or gifts to be reminded how loved I am, but to share this day with you beautiful people is already enough. Oh no, I'm so corny! I'm heavenly thankful for His blessings.

It's a beautiful day

Nomad + KAmikustik Nite

2010-03-04T18:59:00.007+08:00

I just got home looking so fatigue and drained thinking that i could use some sleep until i found out its the time of the month. So normally sleeping during period is a no-no for me because of the pain so here I am ranting in my little virtual space.

Lately, I've been living like a nomad. Period. The only time I'm home is during my bedtime. Merely. Been going up and down to KL, Subang, Ampang, Cyberjaya. I feel like I have been spending more time on the road; getting stuck in the freakin traffic jam and roadblocks. I'm not complaining because it's something that I slowly will adapt. But I miss all the hangouts, eating tau foo fah at the park, lazing around, taking pictures, double dates. Sorry Pitt I haven't been lepak-ing with you and show some neighbour love. Haha.

I was in the audi when all these thoughts started pouring in all of a sudden. Been thinking a lot whether I'm doing this right. So, all these random and simple self-made promises popped up in my head the whole day.

I promise...

I will not disappoint you,
to go for early breakfast more often,
I will not keep my eyes shut during lecture
to travel more,
to go jogging once in a while,
I will at least try not to miss a day without reading the papers,
I'll be more disciplined,
to love unconditionally,
I will not let anything get in the way this time,
I'll always move forward and learn from the past,
I will not reject opportunities,
to be near, no matter how far I am,
to double up my quality of work,
to take care of my health because no one will but me,
I'll drive with extra patience,
I will take care of you when the time comes.

I suddenly became this 200% positive(determined mode) until that night I said my goodbyes. This time around it ain't easy because part of me just didn't want to let go. Don't leave so soon. Come back.

Yes, you are so awesome! I hear ye!

I went to MMU's KamiKustik (I still think it isn't acoustic) Creative Night last night but I wasn't really amused with the line up for the first hour except for Elang's (?) group. Poopy looked at me and said,

"lahh... damn emo wei!"

So we didnt really layan the music and did what we do the best. Observe and be random!

But you know what, I'm damn glad I stayed till the end because Slawboys and Freeloader Inc were effin awesome. They're as good as Pesawat okay. At first I thought it was Abu singing for Freeloader but I would've known if he's a singer! So good that we all wanted encore.

Freeloader: CAN I SAY TO ALL YOU MMU, YOU GUYS ARE FUCKIN AWESOME!
Me: HELL YEAHH!! *SCREAMS*
Poopy: HOI!! YOU'RE NOT MMU! TAK TAU MALU! YOU'RE FROM.....
Me: *doin the I-swear-I'm-gonna-smack-you stare*

I totally unleashed the screaming Franciscan in me that night.

I knew they're one of those established bands from the way they pack their things and communicate with the audience. So organized and experienced. Plus they mentioned something about Stonebay. Coincidentally, I bumped into Miss Shikin and Hamzie while having late dinner and when I told them about the event, Hamzie quickly said, oh ya, ada Freeloader...

-_-'

Anyway, you can always check them out here Freeloader-u-guys-are-awesome

Fine, fine, so obvious I'm gushing about them way too much, but without you, it wasn't a great night either.

Good orgasmic noight. Lol.

Farewell is never my thing

Hey Baby

2010-02-25T02:24:00.010+08:00

If you know me by now or noticed , yes I'm huge fan of photography both film and digital. Hands down. Call me a loner but I'm never alone whenever I'm with my camera. When I got my first DSLR - Marc (eh, I'm no Marc Jacobs. Don't get me wrong), I was beyond happy because not only I bought it 50% with my own money but getting something from one of my wishlist simply added the joy.

There's this saying that you are rich if you own one but I'm not, you get it? Or else, I would have bought 5D Mark II (fuck yeah!) already. Oh, and speaking of that, there was this one time where I had to bring Marc to work so that I can finish up my assignment and one of my colleagues immediately said,

"If you can afford to buy this why do you even want to work?"

Plain ridiculous. And I replied,

Why do you think I'm still here?

I just love buying things with my own money. That's just how I am.

I'm still doodling and learning all the different aspects and angles about cameras with the help of my photography lover :) Need to brush up more. Long way to go. Although I'm nothing compare to any photographers out there, still, nothing is right or wrong. It's just me, my baby and how I see the world. But lately my mind is being so gatal to splurge on some materials (for now) as listed belooow. Why lah? If a guy can invest freaking amount of money on their cars or if you've heard, guys second girlfriend or wife is their cars, then mine is this. Probably this is what I find fulfilling but NOT something to show off. Never will.

When Zul was still around (in SEGi I mean), I can never be less excited whenever I went to his house because his camera+photography enthusiast brother has this HUGE chest box filled with cameras! dfjrbiverhubcdsefnie . NO WAAAAYYYYYYY. And he's always so semangat to show me plus, I got my hands on THE Leica M7 that cost RM20k ++. Bloody 20k for the size of my wallet! Definitely can pay off my PTPTN.

Since I'm saving up for few planned (plus all the random ones) trips this year, I might just have to wish more often that the things that I want will fall from the sky occasionally.

Please, please, please, let me get what I want...

Phottix Wireless with Live View Remote Control

Speedlight

Telephoto (So ambitious, I know)

Portait Lens ; Preferably 85-135mm. As long as it gives good quality bokeh. Photoshopping is so plastic!

Image source: Google

Edit: I just got my parcel today! Yeay! Finally a remote to do all the steady and fun shooting!

p/s: I still don't get why anyone would get a 80M remote

I see rainbow while talking to you :)

Cut The Fat

2010-02-17T02:48:00.005+08:00

If you watch The Biggest Loser - Asia, let me tell you that I've been rooting for red team since day one despite their less team dynamic. I don't care! I still think somehow among the lot Kevin needed this the most. Screw you blue team! When Kevster didn't make it above the yellow line, I knew it, he's NEXT! I immedietely scream my heart out,

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

and got the weirdest stare from my housemate. Ya, ya, I am dramatic. Sigh.

Bravo Carlo! Sticking up for Kevster, you deserve an award for that!
You go Red-er!

TRX your way to the top Carlo! I have faith in you.

"In the end, you will still have to vote for the blues"

Exactly.

Less Is More

2010-02-13T22:22:00.003+08:00

It's fine with me if you think I'm annoyingly loud. But just because I put on an empty face that doesn't mean I'm depressed or about to put an end to my life. Seriously I'm fine.

And when I'm home most of the time, I'm not totally neglecting my so-called social life (not that partaay kind of life). I'd rather stay at home because the place where I am right now is the closest thing to home. Feel so much less homesick. Something I've been looking for the longest time.

Sniff sniff.

Oh, Hi!

2010-02-04T19:38:00.003+08:00

Dear Bloggie

I'm so sorry for the long hiatus but I've been really busy with things over here. Work, hangouts, spring cleaning, settling and lazing around. So yeah, don't ditch me yet ok.

Despite having a whirlwind month (I was lost with waiting and work ), I finally can breathe again. It's been such a long time already but yes, I'm back on my feet again. I
believe February will be a good month. Insya Allah. I practise goood February. Riight. Being productive is not
that hard. With awesome people, money (kerja keras yo), motivation, and love, how can you not be?

Things will get complicated. but I can live with this. So please stay with me :)

So ya, February, do surprise me. I know it will be one hell of a ride but I'm all prepped up. Good thing I
have something to keep my mind of. Or rather buried myself down with it. He said, never rejects opportunity.

Since I have too many dvds with me to watch, 5 seasons of How I Met Your Mother, Glee Season 1, Brothers and Sisters Season 1,
Grey's Anatomy Season 6, Desperate Housewives, complete and untouched set of Winter Sonata
(original some more, wth? oh malunya), more than 100GB files of movies, what in the world have I got myself into?
How am I really gonna help myself doing assignments this time? God help me.

Will I get to do more road trips this month? I'm not sure. February sounds like a packed month already. But try me.

Btw, Babyface is coming down to KL on the 5th of March. dfnjbvdfjvasr.
John Mayer, when are YOU gonna perform here?
Singapore pun jadila.
Please? Your biggest fan.

Hello, hello!

2010-01-06T23:53:00.003+08:00

What a way to welcome January! Much love to you baby! What's next?

Fifth

2010-01-05T23:56:00.003+08:00

Today is Jan, 5th, I mean hello...? In another 2 months, I'll be 21.

I feel like it's only been a month ago I turned 20.

What is this. (Really long) Sigh.

Okay-okay, we'll go shopping tomorrow

Happy New Year

2010-01-01T23:50:00.006+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Twenty ten. What a number.

In 2009… (you can just skip to bold though)

I celebrated New Year’s at the beach.
Homesick most of the time.
I still love some of the assignments. Paddy Campaign, Eat To Live Campaign, Zine, Photojournalism, and drawing concept. Had so much fun doing them esp zine, photojournalism and lukis-lukis.
Invested more than hundred bucks on drawing concept but it was really worth it.
Disappointed with myself coz didn’t do well in the radio news.
Moved in, moved out more than once.
Got better results. Phew!
Went to all states in Semenanjung except Kelantan. Saya mahu pergi.
Worked in the event or rather hectic industry.
Was financially unstable for couple of months.
Lost my phone, together with all my important contacts. Nasib baik I wrote down some of them somewhere.
Still trust my instinct.
2-years and still counting, with Mr. Hafiz.
Got new bangs.
Confessed and finally let it out.
Could’ve gone to Beyonce’s concert and shake my ass off for freeeeeeeee. Ah well.
New boyfriend. J
Bought 2 items online only this year. I still prefer buying things offline no matter how often I go to all these websites.
Went to Tg. Aru and ate 10 sayaps. Alone.
Watch tons of movies. Favourites? Talentime, Avatar, Private Life of Pippa Lee, 500 Days Of Summer, Inglourious Basterds (Kick Ass!),
Sorry Twilight fans, but the movie is way disappointing. And I don’t get the big hoohah on team Edward and Jacob.
High fever only once.
So bloody happy Malaysia won the match. Harimau Boleh!
Walked around in a mall with more than RM5k and got paranoid a bit too much that someone might stab me.
I still miss classes.
I love Perak’s Gulai Tempoyak Ikan Patin.
Never thought I’d be blogging.
Miss doing sister-ly thing with sista. Although you can be such a pain in the ass. Lol. I is loves you.
Lose some, gain some. And I cant thank you enough for that.
Never missed any single episode of Desperate Housewives, Roswell and Grey’s Anatomy.
Still have 3 different seasons, different series to watch.
According to Nash, Mr. S performed during lecture (which I coincidently ponteng that day because I was so knackered after Paddy presentation) because he knew that I won’t come see him perform on Friday. Awkward lah!
Completed my Diploma. Alhamdulillah.

Probably not the best year in my life, but I can never stop counting my blessings.

It is a big thing

2009-12-25T23:57:00.003+08:00

New journey begins whenever things ends.

It's sad to never have have it all,

Even for awhile.

With Loss,

lesson is, to learn to Love Grander,

With Gain.

May you rest in peace now.

Merry, Merry

2009-12-24T00:05:00.008+08:00

I'm like one of those who anticipates Christmas every year, besides Raya. Well, all for the right reasons of course! I do not want anyone to get the wrong idea.

Although every big celebration here comes with markdown priced items, however I find that when xmas is around the corner, massive sales are happening everywhere! Yes, yes that's also because of year end sale. My jaw dropped practically most of the time I enter any shops. It's as if it's the hottest stuff but know, I know 70% of them are meant for clearance.

Also, xmas isn't complete with xmas tree! I literally will keep staring at beautiful and real ornaments, tinsel, lights, garlands and a glittered star at the top is a must! I'm so loving the Curves theme; heaven's gate + angels theme and the best one I've seen this year. Also liking Pavillion's but KLCC's didn't work for me. Sorry!

I seriously can tolerate with whatever movies or shows that's playing on tv. Too many to watch, don't know which one to watch first, and missing part of the shhow. That I can handle. Rather than not knowing what to watch and feeling so miserable switching to all available channels but you still got nothing to concentrate for more than 10 minutes or so, that I cannot handle.

When I was little I had this xmas karaoke cd, (together with kiddish karaoke songs), and I just feel like sharing with everyone my all time favourite xmas songs. The older the better. They never failed to make me feel all-snowy. Haha! I don't get that either!

Rocking Around The Christmas Tree - Brenda Lee

Have yourself a merry little Christmas - Mel Torme (not the original video clip though.)

Last Christmas - Wham!

All I Want For Christmas - Mariah Carey

Have a good Christmas everyone!

Let's jingle away baby

The Other Day

2009-12-07T04:04:00.007+08:00

Here's a checklist of things that I did couple of days ago; all in one day.

1. Woke up not too early, went jogging.

2. (My legs killed me halfway doing) Yoga.

3. Breakfast - bread & fresh milk

4. Clean up the house. (Now how can I miss that?)

5. Desperate Housewives marathon.

6. Talked on the phone with mami, like really long…

7. Continue reading current book that still blow my mind away.

8. Had really late lunch at my favourite and so far the best kedai masakan Melayu.

9. Drove around Damansara as if I have never lived in Damansara.

10. I decided to watch sunset on the way to Sg. Buloh. Crazy kan!

11. Hair treatment, done! Facial, done! Shaved, and all the girly thang

13. RA3. Ah, I cannot resist the thrill! I FORBID you from giving me that look!

14. Sheleep! (Feeling hungry halfway coz I freaking forgot the most important thing, dinner. Ya, ya, I'm a lil exaggerating.)

Everything went spontaneously; just the way I like it. Well, too bad if you think it's plain boring or typical. I realized how much I needed this – space and collective mind.

Kotoh!

2009-11-25T02:06:00.006+08:00

Reading this seriously made my day and and it reminds me of macam mana kita cuba cakap different language, like, proper English or Malay rojak/baku, Sabahan will always be a Sabahan.
It's hard for other people to understand our bahasa apalagi use the terms/words properly. Even the simple word, Bah.

Astaga, gerigitan sa baca ni budak punya karangan! Bole imagine ni dia tulis macam cara dia becakap.

My favourite part, "ya kan, saya ada bawa lastik.buduh!kenapa saya bole telupa?"

Last paragraph dia tu ba! Sempat lagi dia tulis kotoh di situ. Teda-teda betul.

Image source: Michelle's (both)

Btw, Kotoh means padan muka (In your face!)

Ok, penat suda sia tadi berabis ketawa

The Proposal

2009-11-24T01:58:00.005+08:00

I forgot the fact that I downloaded this movie some time ago. I thought file corrupted! Tau tau I found you sitting next to The Ugly Truth!! Me is a fan of Sandra Bullock only when it comes to comedy movies. So natural. Remember Miss Congeniality?

Gracie: You think I’m gorgeous… You want to kiss me… You want to hug me...

***

While figuring out Gracie's talent...

Gracie: Hey! Hey! I got it. I haven’t done it since High School, but maybe..

Manager: You are NOT having sex on that stage!

Gracie: Uhh, I didn’t know that was an option, all right? For this thing, all I need is room service.

Nuff said. Gonna watch it now. Till then, bye bye!!

Picture Perfect

2009-11-21T14:12:00.004+08:00

So close yet so far away.

January is calling me.

I've moved on long time ago. Have you?

CAREFREE

2009-11-12T01:03:00.005+08:00

I'm so impressed with her video and I really think that she deserves to win.

I'm not sure whether this is specially made for this contest or what but the whole process looks professional; well done (editing, lighting, angles, quality).

I know this because of videography subject that I took semesters ago. Shooting, editing, location, materials and tons of crucial thing = HUGE ROLE.
My 5 minutes DP reel itself took more than a day to finish shooting (really glad that I had responsible producer, visionary cameraman + director, i'm-all-ready actor), and few (curi-curi) sleepless nights in Edit Suite. Siap bentang pillow and mattress with the rest of the editors, Esther, Suganya, Zul, Ito, Dhya, Effendy, Rashman, Imran, Zainul, and Jackie.

So after snooping around (Youtube-ing) I found (awesome!) videos posted by SEGians
I heart this 3 videos.
(I sound so 'pisau cukur' at the moment. Ohmydior!)

(I found out that Ito's behind this 2 projects, not to be bias, but I've always been a fan of his works. Including Man and Effendy)

And this! I don't know them but must juniors' work. Good kick start! Seriously!

Passive aggresive, run baby run!

Hear Me Purr

2009-10-31T02:40:00.008+08:00

They are the greatest friends I've known. My whole life, I grew up with a cat/cats at home and kampung. Be it kucing jalanan that I picked up or friend of mami's kindly 'derma', or siamese cats. You'd think I'm crazy if I told you that I can talk, cry, manja-manja and laugh with my cats, alone.

I don't have any pictures of my previous cats with me at the moment. Thanks to Google, I found pictures that seriously look exactly like my cats. (and make me cry really bad).

Lilo

Credits to: Kucingphotos.blogspot.com

Halley (Mom:Lilo)

Pic credit: www.webring.com

and other cats (pictures not found), Fatty, Garfield, Duf Duf, Snoopy & Sneepy (Twin), Kici, Itam, Buntal, and some other cats that I can't remember their names

Most of them died/went missing. And honestly, I can't handle myself when I lose them.

Would love to own a grey & white cat one day. They look so rare.

Source: flickr.com

Too many memories, still moving on

Scratch That

2009-10-31T01:56:00.005+08:00

If this is called addiction, than that ain't my addiction.

Meals can't be better without you,

Despite the strong addiction you got me into,

Having you in my system is too much to handle.

Ugh. Scratch that again.

Dismantled

Old MacDonald Had A Farm

2009-10-30T19:55:00.004+08:00

E..,I..,E..,I..,O..

I love how McD offers variety of not only burgers for us to choose from such as McChicken, Spicy Chicken McDeluxe, Fillet-O-Fish, Big Mac, Quarter Pounder, McFlurry, McNuggets, Ayam Goreng McD, well basically all the Mcs. They also localised McD by putting Bubur Ayam McD in the menu, awesome choice for demam people.

I used to eat fast food a lot back then, until at one point I decided to cut down eating these kind of food because... BECAUSE. My faves are McChicken, Bubur Ayam, Big Mac & Oreo McFlurrry. I'll usually order ala carte instead of set meal because I don't drink coke, pepsi, whatever Mirinda, Sprite. (Oh yes, I get so many reactions from people that that is so ridiculous! ) Unless I kepedasan then 1 or 2 sip is just fine.

Enough about me. What I really have to point out is McD didn't just serve burgers for 20 years here, in fact, they've given so much help and hope to the less fortunate along the way.

I'm not very familiar of this, Ronald McDonald's House Charities (RMHC) until recently. It's like a hospital in a house where patients can stay there accompanied by their parents or guardians. Supah cool I tell you, because lying down in normal hospital ward can be so scary. Been there, done that.

In conjunction with RMHC's 10th Anniversary, a majlis Rumah Tebuka was held at humble ground of HUKM. It was raining heavily during the ceremony and I was freaking shivering the whole time while doing my freelance job. I didn't feel like a stranger, in fact everyone treated me like I was part of the family. All the kids didn't show any I'm-in-pain-ness and that is enough to knock my head that I maybe not living in a perfect life, but maybe at some point, I am much more fortunate.

Claimed as the original Ronald McDonald in Malaysia

I was there enjoying and did McD's cheeky moves, together with the kids.

I'm so young at heart. Hehe

Your smile mean so much to me

Pink eye

2009-10-30T03:23:00.009+08:00

...also known as conjunctivitis.

All these years I thought CONJUNCTIVITIS is uber cool because, one, white area of your eyes turn red, and you get to wear shades the whole time, anywhere, because they're contagious.

BUT IT COMES WITH SUPER COMBO PACKAGE

Pedih to the max, very water/slimy, can't seem to open my eyes in the morning; eye lids melekat and keras, cant roll my eyes, difficulty to look elsewhere without turning my head except in front, and no eyeliner for days.

See how my eye gets droopier every 5 minutes

Disturbed already? You haven't seen the worst part of it.

Definitely diarrhea is better than this

I love the simple things that you do

Hey Mr, Please Hurry Up!

2009-10-26T11:39:00.000+08:00

I need my 8 hours of sleep.

Trip with nasi lemaks, please fast forward